Wheee~ I'm finally back with my blog :) Had this blog since I was in sec 4, quite a long time back alr eh. Heehee, thought of deleting it before but since they're memories, well then just let them stay.
I would say that in a matter of a few years, I've really changed a lot. well as to whether this is good or bad, i would say it's both good and bad. in this period, i've gone through a lot, tried many new things and have definitely grown up quite a bit. But as with all growing pains, people tend to sober up and settle down, so i guess i am no longer the siao charboh, the crazy fun-loving girl that i've been since young.
in this whole period of 1.5 years that i've not written, many changes have taken place certainly. well i'm not gonna list them down one by one because i'm simply not patient enough to do so. whether or not there will be people reading my blog, or whether i want anyone to read it, remains even a question to me.
anyway with the end of Year 2 Sem 1, the holidays are here. for this one month, i just wanna kick back, relax, and do the things that i normally dont get to, such as catching up with all my friends!!!!!, shopping, and get a bit of an exercise done. of course, i wanna figure out what i wanna achieve in the year ahead, as with the ending of the first semester the new year starts. i'm been VERY aimless this past year, just taking each day as it comes, and this is doing me no good at all, and i'm starting to worry for myself.
didnt blog for a period of time, cuz i guess i didnt want ppl to read my thoughts as they can get quite... affecting/offending/whatever. i guess i'm grown-up enough now to handle my emotions, and blogging gives me an avenue to tell ppl what i wanna say, as well as to reflect on my actions rationally.
on a lighter note, after my last paper on tue, i went into hibernation mode and slept for 14 hours straight. exams are no joke esp when you know you've been "on holiday" the entire semester. i could eat nothing when i felt very hungry, could not get a wink of sleep when i felt extremely tired, much less concentrate when i was studying. think i'll screw up my results this time AGAIN, even though i'm more hardworking compared to the last 2 sems. then on wed, i went mambo!!!!!!! it was really great fun seeing everyone coming out to let their hair loose after the Trauma of the Exams. i cannot rmb having enjoyed clubbing so much for a long time. this time the booze was good, the people were fantastic even though the music was so-so. i guess the best thing was seeing all my frenz around and just plain socializing and knowing that i'm blessed with so many frenz is great enough:)
today i went out from the guys from 27mc for dinner at new york new york, and i guess i havent gained back my appetite.. haha. maybe it was the fatigue, perhaps it was my moody mood. after that we caught The Heartbreak Kid, which was R21 and they were laughing at me cuz i was the only one around who isnt 21 yet. darn. anyhow, the show was just so-so, a bit on the couth side and with a little dry humour. not exactly my type of show, but i'm glad eveyone enjoyed ourselves. i guess thats all that matters when everyone is out eh:)
alright, just post pictures of my future outings, havent put any so far cuz i cant be bothered with the html stuff. heehee...
06/12/07
14/07/06
i'm like hopelessly bored.
brain cells dying. from trying to figure how to teach the concept of multiplication and division to a primary 1 girl. already exhausted all my means. she remembers for 2 minutes and then unlearns everything.
dammit teachers are noble.
my life now revolves around rag (or rather, science stuff), tuition, memoirs of a geisha (pretty caught up with this book), msn (which is again science people and sometimes sports camp people) and my thoughts 24/7.
a lot of things are running through my mind. a lot of things i can't figure. a lot of people i can't figure. a lot of things i'm thankful for. a lot of room for improvement. a future all ahead of me.
hmmm. i wonder. my new start in this new beginning. my new friends. what truly lies ahead? what gives?
13/07/06
Neo, you follow your head when it comes to success
Between all your different activities and goals, you might not have time to stop and smell the dozen long-stemmed roses. It's not that you don't want to make room in your life for love, necessarily. It's just you're probably juggling a lot of different priorities, and matters of the heart might complicate things — or they have the potential to.
Between school, work, goals, and friends, racing off toward a fairy-tale ending probably just isn't your thing. You're more grounded than that, and take pride in being smart when it comes to balancing your real life and your relationships behind closed doors. But with smarts like yours, you're sure to notice when love comes knocking. So don't be afraid to answer. Success can be measured in all sorts of ways...
how accurate! (:
13/07/06
the only thing i can do now is to sit and stone so decided to come online. my brain isnt functioning but i can't get to slp cuz my head is pounding.
let me clarify that i didnt drink a lot. and i WASN'T trying to run away from any problems or what. i just wanted a night of good clean fun with my new friends then long island (AGAIN) came into the picture. jus kept asking me to DA! then someone's friends came over with SIXTY shots. but i didnt get to drink cuz they were being grabbed outta my hands.
and i thought ZM was the cabbie. so paiseh cuz i think i vomited on his car. (edit: but actually i didnt) plus i think now siqian doesnt wanna talk to me liao. (edit: actually this isnt true) cuz last night she was screaming at me the whole time.
so bloody embarrassing. those were all my uni friends. there goes my dignity and my reputation
woke up feeling like trash, smelling like trash and looking like trash. slept with my makeup on. wth really.
ate 2 wedges of orange and it tasted like my vomit.
please man. get alcohol far far away from me.
11/07/06
RAG IS FUN! (:
i had such a good time laughing at nigel. and talking nonsense with all the rest. and getting tips from seniors.
SCIENCE FAC ROCKS HALLELUJAH (:
just got back from chalet with the rv pe relief teachers and huimin's clique.
wheee. had like super a lot to say but now like forgot already.
what i'm really proud of is I CAN BLADE NOW!! i never thought i could in this lifetime since i kept falling that time i learnt in p5. yays :D and i'm not too clumsy a blader. unlike WY! heehee. and my screams make people fall :x muahahaha.
so tired ugh. didnt slp last night till about 5am. then i went out like the lights and even when all of them woke up to get breakfast and came back, i was still sleeping (i think my grammar sucks now ugh). what really touched me was that they left the card in the electric thing and had to call the reception to open the door for them cuz they were afraid that i would wake up in the darkness (and scare myself to death cuz we were telling ghost stories before that). thanks!! (:
and my tutees' father called me half an hour before the tuition to cancel. baaahhh. all that rushing back from ECP for NOTHING.
was thinking on the bus and realised that i've changed lah. back to the original me. like 3 years ago i was A, then i changed into A-, then A+ last year, and now i'm back to being A. good thing i guess. A is this person who fights real hard for what she really wants and believes in. A- is this pessimistic person. cowardly even. A+ is this laidback person. I'm glad i'm out of my shell, no longer withdrawn and anti-social. No longer a need to struggle for external approval, to find myself amidst the crowd, to run away from endless troubles and to climb out from bottomless pits. My confidence is back again. *pops champagne and celebrates!!* woohoo!!
thinking back, i've really done stupid things to run away from my apparent-solutionless problems. haha. like drinking. clubbing. wth really. its really a waste of my life baaahhh. and destroying my reputation. and like throwing my studies away. really should have studied harder in JC, instead of thinking all those useless thoughts and letting all that nonsense get to me. now it's a fresh start, i wanna make the best outta it.
like practically the whole world, or at least my whole world, got into temasek. now i'm starting to feel desperate. damn.
We were strangers starting out on our journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you
No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected what you did to my heart
When I lost hope you were there to remind me
This is the start
(chorus)
And Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever
A Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you
We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you
(chorus)
I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart
grace means there's nothing you can do to make God love you less.